I hate getting dressed every morning. 

The way the clothes look, the way they feel, every aspect of it I hate. I can’t remember the last time I truly felt comfortable in my skin, let alone my clothes. 

As I was growing up, specifically in elementary school, I remember being so happy to pick out a new outfit every day. As I have grown up, I’ve become increasingly self conscious, and that has come out in the clothes I choose to wear every day. 

Usually I find myself throwing on something last minute after staring at my closet helplessly. I have endless T-Shirts, none of which are necessarily relevant and most that are hand-me-downs from my mom or dad. 

Usually I can find something I’m at least mildly comfortable with in the morning, and go with that. The past couple weeks have been different though. I cannot find a single thing that I think looks decent. 

I had a friend ask why I can’t formulate an outfit correctly, and I just stared at them in shock. I mean yeah, I can admit my outfits are definitely lacking in not only looks but also in practicality.

For someone to look me dead in the eyes and basically say I had no taste was a slap in the face. 

I will never understand why my Pinterest board is stuffed full of outfits that are so on par with who I want to dress as, but when I put those exact outfits on they no longer look good. Food some reason, those people have magical Pinterest energy or something that allows their outfits to always look amazing,

Maybe it’s a body image issue, or maybe I am drastically over analyzing how people will perceive me depending on the outfit I am wearing, but I find myself shrinking into the clothes I put on, wearing baggier stuff to hide what I look like. 

Growing up with people’s opinions of me, what I looked like and how I dressed constantly on my mind has without a doubt changed the way I view myself and the way I go about dressing.

Whoever said that high school wasn’t a fashion show was completely out of their mind. 

Everyone I run into in the hallway seems to have these perfectly engineered outfits that have the perfect jewelry and hairstyles to go with them. I just stare back with my messy ponytail and leggings.